Sooner or Later

Well still no baby!!! I had an appointment this morning and was hoping for some progress and of course nothing has happened since last week. I am still 70% effaced and barely dilating. This little boy of ours is super stubborn. My doctor decided that if he has not made his appearance by my birthday the 11th, then she will be inducing me the night of my birthday. Yes its exciting to know that 12 days from now I will have my little boy in my arms but at the same time, I want him to come on his own without drugs and before then.

For some reason today has been a hard day for me and I know its nothing to worry about and that I should enjoy my last days of being independent and take this time for myself and spend quality time with my husband before we become a family of 3, but I found out I was pregnant at 4 weeks. I am almost 40 weeks, I feel like I have been pregnant for years and not only that but it took us a year to even get pregnant. I am so very grateful for everything and so very happy we are going to be parents in a short but what seems to be a very LONG 12 days {I have waited almost 2 years for this and now its only 12 days away or less} that is if he decides to come out before then.

I am hoping that our little one decides to come next week. I think my emotions are out of control today, and only because I am ready to hold him and kiss him. It will all work out and I just cant think about it. We will meet him soon enough.

I just had to vent and write about it!!!

xoxo